For as long as I can remember, I have always wanted to get married. I never thought about it in the conventional sense – I didn’t think of the dress, the guests or the location – I simply want to know that someone loves me as much as I love them. To me, marriage isn’t just a ring or a piece of paper; it’s a commitment. It’s a sign that the other person wants to share my world and theirs with me.
I’m not going to lie, I have been engaged before. I had been with him for nearly 4 years but it all fell apart and I’m glad it did. We were never right for one another and it’s a good thing we came to our senses. He was never going to be my one and I was ashamed of being his fiancee. We had an awful relationship but it never put me off finding that magical feeling.
The current problem is I push for it too much. I’ve been with Green Ranger for 2 and a half years and I would marry him tomorrow – the complication comes in that he doesn’t see the rush, which is understandable. However, what he and a lot of my friends don’t understand is that, to me, it isn’t a rush. I know that he is the only one for me, my soulmate, my best friend and my equal in everything. It simply feels right.
It is this feeling that I cannot describe to people when they do ask that inevitable question, ‘Why? You are so young.’ Does age matter when you have found the right person?… Should it? All that should surely matter is that that person makes you the best and happiest person you can be. It should matter that they make you feel safe and without being cliche, they are the one person that you want to see first thing in the morning and last thing at night. It should matter that they are the one that you want to grow old with and be your true self around. They should be the one person who doesn’t judge you for being you and feels like home wherever you are. Just one touch and one hug can immediately make you feel safe.
This is what Green Ranger embodies to me and this is why I can’t wait to take on life’s adventure with him, hand in hand, from buying our first house, to having our first child, to travelling the world and growing old together. He is my everything.