when you are hit with truly brilliant news. This morning I woke up to find two of my best friends have got engaged after spending 10 wonderful years together overcoming a hell of a lot along the way. As far as couples go, these are the two who inspire me the most in my own relationship – they are fun, they understand one another, they aren’t too similar but mould so perfectly. I was so happy for their news I bolted into Green Ranger and shouted it in his face pretty much. My first thought – Sod the Jubilee, I have the best wedding ever to attend. After sending the best of wishes, my mind went wandering.
I then began to look inwards – something I now sorely regret. I realised, bar one, that I am the only one in my group of female friends that isn’t married or engaged. It wasn’t so much this that upset me, yeah I’ll be eternally jealous but it’s that I genuinely want that more than many things in life, to be engaged and married and happy – the feminist’s nightmare. I suddenly felt very far behind. All the while realising how crazy irrational I was being – I am 22 and only been with Green Ranger a year – I wasn’t expecting miracles. And yeah, although we have just moved in about a month ago, it would be a mental thing to do, I’d still do it. I know in my heart that he is the one I was always meant to be with, it just took sometime to find him and hit a few frogs/arseholes along the way.
After trying to put smiles on and be happy, Green Ranger saw through the cracks and realised I had been pondering what had happened. So, I explained. Also telling him that I knew I was mental and that I was being totally irrational. He reiterated why it’d be mental and there you go. The conversation ended; ‘We’ve only been together a year, I need a threshold for this kind of thing – you may hate me in 12 months time.’ I won’t but of course, I can’t make any guarantees, ‘we can only be sure of one thing in this world – change.’ I guess until he has the blind faith that I have and a degree at the University of Insane then I shall remain waiting a very long time.
And yes, that is a Decepticon engagement ring… 😮