The last few weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind if truth be told. There’s been a multitude of things that have been going on and that I have going on in my life. I can’t pass a day without being teary or so it seems! So, I guess this is a mini-round up of the last week.
Lets start with a positive! This week I have been asked by insideline magazine, a derby magazine, after applying to write a blog for them, to write one every week or every month about derby life. I am super excited for this new opportunity and hope it does well. I think I need to self publicise more but am a bit of unsure of how – not that I want a million and one followers, just a special number. If that even makes sense…. people who will genuinely enjoy it I guess. I have grown to love writing so am mega excited about it. I am awaiting a blogging account, so I’ll keep this updated.
As I am moving now on May 19th, the day after my history exam, to Ifield. I’ve had to sort out a full time job, which of last week will be going from part-time to full-time work in Caffe Nero. This time in the new store that will be put in Crawley. Although I love this job and I do – the regulars are amazing and some do genuinely care, the banter between the team and my manager and the coffee shop ethic – I need something new and something better paid. I’ve been commencing my job hunt over the past couple of weeks to see if I can achieve something I want to do and so far its been a little fruitless. I have applied for NHS healthcare assistant roles, teaching assistant roles, archive roles and internships and all have been fully subscribed and I’m missing experience. It is a quandry because how can I get experience whilst being paid when experience is expected for free? I am going to apply to youth worker roles now, administration roles, school roles and a few more internships this week, just so I am doing something. I’m also trying to apply to more sites for writing or publications, I need experience in this area to progress, anything is always better than nothing.
The bad thing about this whole moving business and stress caused by jobs, finishing my degree and money is the affect it has had on me and Green Ranger. The relationship that needed to be the strongest this week kinda failed this weekend. GR has been doing nights for the past four weeks and of course, this has added a strain what with trying to see houses and finally get our flat, it has also inevitably made him more tired and exhausted coupled with the stress of being kicked out effectively. I guess the issue is he has been miserable, taking it out on me with snappiness and things kinda went a bit south. It got to the point where I questioned if moving is the right thing to do, if it was gonna be so depressing than was it worth it? Did I want to be sad again? It came to blows this weekend – we had a talk and he was worried and exhausted. We’ve both been burnt in the past but this was stressing him out that I may hurt him, which inwardly upset me because I thought he may not trust me. I have since reassured him and told him to man up. We have to stick together in this. From then, we have recovered and things are back to how they were (thank god!).
On the up-side, I have been promised a lemon drizzle cake baked by GR when I move in and a roast on the first sunday we have together. The fun begins! Then we get to have a house warming; going between a Back to the Future, Mexican or Demon Headmaster theme… It’ll be great no matter what. Also, as almost a sorry, though I have said I’d pay for them, GR bought me the Hunger Games series of books which I have wanted to read since I saw the film. I’m secretly hoping they are better than the film but I’ll be writing about it…
We’ve also found a lovely white, wood framed, sturdy bed from IKEA to fit in the flat, which is gonna be lovely and I get to pick bedding soon. This, for me, is a fun part – picking out colours and patterns and cushions. The room is totally white so it can be whatever we want it to be. Exciting! I’d rather have two single covers, so I can have the Spiderman bedsheets I’ve always wanted but hey ho… 😛
We also went on an adventure to Portsmouth, Gunwharf Keys. We set aside a day to do something different and we did – can’t wait to go back and visit the actual city though… The outlet centre was great and I finally got a dress for the wedding I’m going to in May, which was fun but I’m not keen on it. I’ll do a post on the outfit this week… but it wasn’t satisfying. The satisfying part was finding a Vans outlet and spending a mint in there when tops were about £5. Lovin’ it! Just as we were leaving, we saw a couple of rainbows, we’d also seen two previously that week. I think (and it sounds corny) we have taken it as a positive sign for something good happening and us making a good decision.
Lastly, I promise… Since watching The Voice UK last night the song ‘Ordinary People’ written by Will.i.am about a past 9 year relationship and sung by John Legend has been stuck in my head and makes me tearful every time I listen to it. I loved it before but when I got told it’s meaning, I loved it even more. It is so much more powerful and tender compared to the overplayed Adele track, ‘Someone like you’ although her lyrics are touching to say the least. It got me thinking about break-up tracks I have had in my life, I’ll do a post soon. Music has an amazing power to move me and this song has:
This isn’t the only track though, I heard this on the TV the other day and on the radio and have literally no idea what it is about. At first, I found it quite boring but now I think it is quite addictive. I’ve wanted to listen to it allday, enjoy: